Ireland wasn't in the forecast

FUCK is a powerful word when used appropriately and not abusedFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKyeah, degrading that word makes me feel betterdamn trying to see HAM (REALLY REALLY REALLY FUCKING LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT...although its not a total waste yet...there's still hope)
damn sleeping in airports
damn snow
damn ryanair
damn stansted
yay that the day wasn't a total loss (spent afternoon in london)
damn these past two days on 3 hours sleep
damn being too angry and tense to cry, though its bound to come later
thank god I'm alone in my room for the weekend, I desperately need it
damn the fact that I'm cursing because I cannot find a stronger vocabulary to satisfy the proliferation of emotions I'm hitting in little more than one day

I'm sorry that I won't be there

...i was really looking forward to giving and getting hugs from them, too.....