walking on broken glass

I shouldn't be pissed off.

But I want to fucking cunt punt someone.  And I don't know why.

A bowling game shouldn't get me this angry.  

I don't want to be angry.   Its her last night here with us.  I wanted it to be happy and fun.  And I feel like my mood took me out of it.  

AND THAT FUCKING PISSES ME OFF.

But I was in this mood long before that.  I've been in  a funk for almost a week on and off.  I hate it.  And I love it.  I love being bitchy.  I love being sarcastic and meaning it in  a cruel way.  Its a release.  

I can't do this.  I can't be Jekyll and Hyde.  

I'd rather walk on broken glass than deal with life at the moment.

This isn't the worst feeling in the world.  The worst feeling will be tomorrow morning when I have to wake up and live with myself.