So while we're over here, back home they're presenting "The Vagina Monologues". I'm really excited that I'll be able to do that next year.
Really loving the skirts here. That sounds weird, but they sit at the natural waist here (which will generally look good on any female body) and aren't the ridiculously short kind back home. I can't believe its already been nearly six weeks since the flight from home.
I feel that I've made changes internally. I read a friend's blog where they talked about a 'giving' exercise, where they gave up something to another, knowing they would never see it again. And I thought about what I would give up and what would actually be gut-wrenching for me to give up. And I noticed that my gut churned more when people flashed into my mind, some more than others.
And I don't like admitting my faults. Even when joking. I know this is for my own good, but I hate self-evaluations. Let someone else evaluate me then I can go study it and react. I may reveal more than what that person knows. What others percieve of me is not the same as what I percieve of myself.
My mom keeps this old comic strip with two characters. It goes something like this:
A: Everybody HATES me!
B: Nobody hates you.
A: I HATE ME!
B: You don't count....You have access to priveledged information.
That basically sums it up. And trying to explain myself when I feel like I'm in the middle of realizing who I am sounds just as awkward as it feels.
some other thoughts just to throw out there:
The one who loves you and the one you love are never the same person.
We accept the love we think we deserve.
We got personality, with a capital Y. Why? Because we're hot!-Ramon, "Happy Feet"
Man, this guy is so accidentally cool!-Ramon, "Happy Feet"
If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not enough.-Ann Landers
Free love? As if love is anything but free! Man has bought brains, but all the millions in the world have failed to buy love. Man has subdued bodies, but all the power on earth has been unable to subdue love. Man has conquered whole nations, but all his armies could not conquer love. Man has chained and fettered the spirit, but he has been utterly helpless before love. High on a throne, with all the splendor and pomp his gold can command, man is yet poor and desolate, if love passes him by. And if it stays, the poorest hovel is radiant with warmth, with life and color. Thus love has the magic power to make of a beggar a king. Yes, love is free; it can dwell in no other atmosphere.-Emma Goldman
To be loved for what one is, is the greatest exception. The great majority love in others only what they lend him, their own selves, their version of him.-Goethe
If love is the answer, could you rephrase the question?-Lily Tomlin
Yeah, if you haven't caught on, it reached a theme. Go figure. We're plagued with it (almost as bad as affluenza. Get the vaccine for that one-be happy with what you have and make the most of it!) Yeah, just quotes worth giving another second to.
